i called my papa today. i was sort of a wash of emotions afterwards. i mean, on one hand, i was really glad to talk to him, and i know he appreciated the call. he gets pretty lonely, and i get so caught up in my own life that i forget the small pleasures he takes out of talking to family. i know that he appreciates it when he gets to talk to any one of us, since it is so rare that he has a chance to see loved ones personally. however, on the other hand, i always feel a bit guilty after our calls, because i realize how many things there are that i could do for him, even if it's just a simple call once a week, that i neglect to do. and that's just selfish of me. so i plan to change that.



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