Have you ever seen those "Life Sucks Without A Car" commercials? That was my mantra this afternoon. I feel so bad always having to bum rides off of people. But anyways, that's just the way it goes, so I should get used to it for now.



For the last week or so, I have had the house to myself. Pretty much free reign over everything, which is always nice. But on the other hand, there have been a lot of things to do and it almost feels like nothing has changed. The only difference is that I am the only one who can do anything about the stress I have. With no one around, there is no one to fix things or even blame problems on. It all comes down to me. The ups and downs of independance, I guess.However, all in all, there are more pros than cons.



I do miss my parents. I'm so used to having them around, that even though I don't always think so when they are here, it is nice to have them around. You know, coming home to dark house is a completely different feeling. Kind of lonely. It really makes me think about the future. In two or three years, I'll be out of here for good. I can't even imagine where I'll be. It's really hard to predict-not knowing what I want out of life at all. All I kknow is that this is not it yet. I enjoy my life, but I think the future will bring even more.



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