I don't know exactly what it is, but lately I have really been evaluating my life. Where I stand, and where I'm headed to next. Like looking for a divine plan in the midst of all this seemingly monotonus down time. I guess I'm just wanting some balance. I heard something the other day that finally identified the feeling I have been having. The person said, "I feel like I have reached this high level of mediodocrity".



I could relate to that.Wanting more out of the life you are living. Streching each minute to it's fullest extent. But then, maybe it isn't even my life that needs changing, Maybe, it's just a matter of perspective. There is so much to appreciate in life, and for some reason I have become very skeptical of the little things that make every day worth it. Things that inspire people to live great lives, doing great things. I don't really want to be so jaded. I just want to find a way to appreciate life in a new way, despite all the negative, shallow goings on around me.

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