Luminescence

So I was watching VH1 tonight (not a great choice, but it beats out the evil MTV any day) and the show "The List" came on. Now there is not a whole lot to the show, and I probably would have just kept on channel surfing, if it had not been for the category of tonight show. The topic was: Best band or artist of the 90s. strangely enough, and I do give the people on this show some credit for these two additions, both the Dave Matthews Band and Radiohead were on this list. Now these two artists are very close to my music-loving heart, and I even though I knew it all in vain, I was really hoping to see them make it onto the top three list at the end of the show. As expected, niether band made it onto the list, but what really shocked me was what they got beat out by. The top three artists of the 90's, according to VH1 viewers are as follows: 1. Dr. Dre 2. Nirvana 3. Pearl Jam I am not going to begin to debate the musical achievements of Nirvana, or anything else like that, b...

Solitude By Kenneth David Teel Sometimes When good friends bomb us With their bombs And toss too many pennies At our feet And flood our minds With gay sincerities We want to flee And think There is no place to hide No freedom anywhere We pull inside ourselves Not in malice towards our friends But in preservation Of ourselves We run And run Through the wind Through the waving grass Up to a wind cliff Above the sea We find ourselves Not in our friends Like mirrors Bouncing back our cherished images We find ourselves In Solitude. *Often acceptance and favor, and the company of the normal, begin to clutter and confuse, and play havoc with the senses of fre...

I have always looked at life like a journey. A journey that you had to go on by yourself, without the aid of anyone, or anything else. However, despite this solitude, there are always others who will cross your path, and for a time, be it very long, or very short, they share the same road. You experiance the same tribulations, help eachother around the obstacles-just provide good company. And sooner or later, your paths will diverge and each will go their own way, making for themselves an individual and very solitary road. My somewhat cliche metaphor for friendship. It has been my personal experiance that friendships cannot always endure the test of time. for some reason, I make friends very quickly, but with the same speed that we grew together, we grow apart. this realization often leaves me feeling very lonely and inadequate. Because why else would I be left alone so often? But once I started to realize that this was mearly the natural order of things, the same sense of lonliness di...

I am so mad! I just had this really great post, and my computer kicked me off before I had a chance to publish this. Another sign of the inadequacies of AOL.

ahh yes. thanksgiving. that holiday we all forget that is smashed somewhere in between the riotous halloween and christmas propaganda. it has something to do with pilgrims, autumn, and food, right? I think that thanksgiving is entirely underrated. I mean, when it comes down to it, the actual meaning of the whole holiday is often overshadowed by football, discount shopping sprees at the mall, and turkey. And, as halmark as tghis sounds, I think people should take a breath to be thankful on this day. I mean, it is the only day a year we have set aside to be grateful, we should utilize it. Now, I am not completely innocent of forgetting the whole "meaning" of Thanksgiving. I can appreciate how hard it is to stop, look around you, and just appreciate life. It all moves so fast. And maybe you don't particularly like the way life is going at the moment. But all in all, there is a lot to be grateful for. Your family, perhaps, or your lack of one, depending on who you are related...

so tonight is the night. the first of my three drama performances. it's a pretty exciting ( and frightening ) prospect. for one thing, our rehersals have been ridiculously unproductive and hardly helpful. there have been problems with everything from getting props and organizing ticket sales to publicity and lighting. but the biggest problem has been the overall apathy of all of the actors. people were neglecting their scripts, not learning lines or blocking, and that was the part that was really discouraging. i mean, we all auditioned for this, and we are supposed to set a standard-a higher caliber, you know? and yes, i do admit that the play isn't the most engaging and interesting piece that we could do, but it is still worth doing well. no matter what..."the show will go on"...so we might as well do the best we can. but anyways, enough with that. our dress rehersals have been looking up, and i am actually very optimistic about tonight's performance. everything ...